Time

It’s been 20 years
Since we first met
Time keeps marching on

I still remember that first night
Little did I know
How my path would change

I used to wonder
If I would ever find love
Or if it would find me

Our beginning was rocky
But we made it through
And you granted my deepest wish

I smiled from ear to ear
And my heart leapt with joy
When you simply said “Yes”

Youth has its problems
Some grow out of it
Slower than others

We both carried scars
From our previous lives
Wounds so easily reopened

Self medicating and self inflicting
Not seeing what was wrong
Blinded to what was happening

Taking turns hurting each other
Until that wonderful day
Our son made us a FAMILY

Health issues arose
Bringing us closer
In hope and prayer

But depression began to set it
The signs where there
But I could not see

Our life seemed good
From the outside looking in
Things were looking up

Career was moving
Family was growing
Depression kicked in heavy

Still not comprehending
Still trying to grow
A work in progress, going slow

Love fills the heart
Desiring to make things right
Still things are missing

Go West young man
A change will do some good
Freedom and change drive

Issues still remain
Life isn’t always smooth
Change comes to us again

The good is very good
The bad is downright aweful
Rollercoasters were never very fun

Still through it all
There was love

You have changed
I see it every day
Strong of will
Dedicated, loving concern

I see you now
As the person I believed you to be
Those 20 years ago.

I too have changed
Though some remains the same

No longer am I
The center of my thoughts
The focus of my being

I have evolved
Working toward a family goal
Often too quietly

Trying not to burden
Others with my cares
This is the error of my ways

Once again my love
Is teaching me a lesson
I had thought already learned

I hear the songs
But I miss the meanings
Until my heart opens in pain

I hope it’s not too late
Only time will tell.

7/25/08